I felt dissatisfied with discrepancies I was unconscious of during my analysis of "The Rememberer" in class. Thus I further explored it.
Perhaps Ben was not devolving, and not evolving, either. He was just changing- at first, stubbornly, which was why he turned into simians at first, clinging to the ground. They're closely related to humans. His partner (the speaker), was not changing at all. She was not evolving or devolving, either- she was just stuck in her mind and unaware of it. That's how it came across to me, anyway: She reached and reached and reached to find ways to let go of Ben and still couldn't. The reason why she was failing to find closure is because this character was reaching from within her mind, without any consciousness of doing so. I also think that she couldn't face that she didn't 'love' Ben unconditionally like how she had indoctrinated herself into believing she did. I feel both sorrow and disgust toward this character and her helplessness. Also, I judged her to be pretentious and pedestrian. I had a difficult time trying to mold with her energy.
By the time the speaker was convinced she was letting Ben go, he was a salamander- fluid enough to move with the ocean. I believe that her 'letting go' was reactive to his turning into a salamander, like she knew she had no control over the situation.
When you move back into the great sea, you're truly liberated. Nothing of one's life up until that point can hold one back- I think it's hard for us to admit that we do hold one another back from true freedom. We impose the rules we set for ourselves on everyone else too, and now we're all trapped in a big web of lies- because we feel *too ashamed to admit we lie.
I think the reason why we looked at Ben as devolving is because we think other animals are 'less than' humans somehow, or that we're not animals. I'm proud to be an animal- which helps me cope with being a human. (I don't like us). But, that creates a personal bias: if Ben is turning into a salamander, then he's evolving. I prefer to step away from the extremes we have a penchant for and just say he's changing.
Perhaps Ben was not devolving, and not evolving, either. He was just changing- at first, stubbornly, which was why he turned into simians at first, clinging to the ground. They're closely related to humans. His partner (the speaker), was not changing at all. She was not evolving or devolving, either- she was just stuck in her mind and unaware of it. That's how it came across to me, anyway: She reached and reached and reached to find ways to let go of Ben and still couldn't. The reason why she was failing to find closure is because this character was reaching from within her mind, without any consciousness of doing so. I also think that she couldn't face that she didn't 'love' Ben unconditionally like how she had indoctrinated herself into believing she did. I feel both sorrow and disgust toward this character and her helplessness. Also, I judged her to be pretentious and pedestrian. I had a difficult time trying to mold with her energy.
By the time the speaker was convinced she was letting Ben go, he was a salamander- fluid enough to move with the ocean. I believe that her 'letting go' was reactive to his turning into a salamander, like she knew she had no control over the situation.
When you move back into the great sea, you're truly liberated. Nothing of one's life up until that point can hold one back- I think it's hard for us to admit that we do hold one another back from true freedom. We impose the rules we set for ourselves on everyone else too, and now we're all trapped in a big web of lies- because we feel *too ashamed to admit we lie.
I think the reason why we looked at Ben as devolving is because we think other animals are 'less than' humans somehow, or that we're not animals. I'm proud to be an animal- which helps me cope with being a human. (I don't like us). But, that creates a personal bias: if Ben is turning into a salamander, then he's evolving. I prefer to step away from the extremes we have a penchant for and just say he's changing.
No comments:
Post a Comment
Note: Only a member of this blog may post a comment.