in class - Jeff c

So here I am standing in the rain, am I crying? I guess you wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. I close my eyes and then open them, it’s still raining. But now the rain feels heavier, its red, and there are bodies at my feet. I close my eyes and open them several times, nothing changes it is still raining and there are bodies at my feet, and what’s worse is that I don’t know if I’m crying or not. The reason I close my eyes and open them so many times is that I wish that maybe once I open them all the blood would wash away from my body and I could start anew. How do I justify this who can give me the answer, I have killed everyone that means anything to me, all except you? It’s raining but I can’t feel the drops hit my face I wonder if I see you if I would be able to feel anything.